Take a breath and live

It is April now, the time never wait for us and a quarter of 2017 has passed. I have submitted my upu application in these two months, the deadline was dropping at 6 April but because of my recklessness, I think I have arranged wrongly about my school and I began to worry about it. I put UKM law as my first choice , UKM business as my second choice and uum law as my third choice. Lord, I cannot wait to enter ukm as a law student, please give it to me. Law is the only course I want. 

From my form six life started, I kept emphasizing and work hard to get a good results just to secure a place in public universities. But since UM has changed their requirement which is they only accept art stream students as law students. In contrary, it means matriculation who wants to do law will only can apply for UKM and UUM to achieve their goals. This brings UKM more competitive. May UKM will make a wise choice and a more adequate range in accepting students. Muet is also a problem for many peoples, like me. I only achieved a band 4 in muet which is I just met the requirement but not that as firm as the person who gets band 5. I really work very hard to improve it and I hope I can have a better performance when interview. I had went through my form six life and achieved what I want by leaps and bound, but I know it is all God's graces. May I can continue with seeking God's faith to let my faith grow more stronger. Wish I can follow God's commandments and learn to be more humble. 

Great chapter in my life

After one and half year, my form six life had finished I got my result on 28 of Feb. Unexpectedly, I got 4 flat for my STPM, it's 4 flat, no kidding. I thought I cannot achieve my goal since I studied form six because my sejarah I got one B- and my econs i got one C+, but luckily, i think the A of two sems have covered my B- and C+ plus it only occupied a small percentage in those subjects. I felt very grateful because one of my dream and goal had accomplished. Thank you Lord. Now I make sure law is the course I want and I must get it. Yes, I didn't pass the quali when spm , it makes me feels regret because I don't now why my English can be B+ at that time. It makes sense that my English was not enough good, I know.

I did many researches since I have a seven months holiday, i found that interview's questions were quite hard because they want you think rational and want you think critically. I have to build up my confident in these time because I want law, so much. Only one step I can make my dreams come true, although it needs muet band 5 to graduate from the law school and I only got band 4 in muet, but I believe I can get band 5 in the future. Lastly, with God, all things are possible. I can do anything through He strengthen me. Praise the Lord, Amen.

Is time to let go.

今天虽然是英文主题，但却是以华文来写稿。
我刚刚在fb看了一个漫画，是说一些关于分手的事情，老实说，已经触动了我的心。是什么时候还会再想起你，3年了，每次不经意在fb search别人的名只要是和你相像的名字就会弹出来。因为和你在彭亨的日子有态度回忆，我一直都不是太敢回去，我每走过那些我们在一起的地方回忆就会涌上来，这些不是我所能控制的。当我看到我朋友有你们两个人的照片时，我马上unfriend了她。你告诉我你对我有误会，你不能接受远距离，这些我都接受了，可是为什么，我就是还忘不了你？我真的很努力很努力去说服我自己很真心很真心的祝福你们，可是假如有一天我们真的遇见了，我想我还是会假装坚强眼泪还是会忍住的。
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zs8TRQ4PTYk
没有好想你，只是这首歌给我的感觉最深。是时候结束了。

Hi there

The last post when i posted was a year ago. Actually I'm not forgot this place because sometimes I just like to write something about myself and reflect myself how I deal with life. Honestly, my form six life just be great because I met many people and found many friends from Convent. I think the most important is I finally got back my motivation. Compare to 2014 (spm), I felt myself very lazy and lost all the motivation want to get the A. I regret now because I didn't work hard last time and my English only got B+ until now I can't apply UM just because of my English. Maybe God close one door and open one window for me which is the window is UKM. Last week my STPM results had coming out, thank God I got 2A and 2B+, this results which is I never expected I can get this good. Undeniable, I really an arts student.

Yesterday I was sitting muet exam, I'm quite unhappy of my teammate because I can't feel the cooperation between us. Yes, I want to be the best one because I want to get band 5. Looking for ward to 12 March for completing the test.

Next week ujian formatif is coming and I still can blogging, praise myself, hehe.

Until next time.

原来曾经那么伤心难过，连我都心疼我自己了。

open school next week

when spm results released,i did not get the good results as before.I only get 4A-(it's A-),2B+,3B and 1C+,yeah,and the subject I get C+ is Physics.I did not expected it because when my trial results overall my sc subjects my Physics is the best one.Never mind,as they always said spm needs to depend on your luck too.My parents was happy when I got this kind of results because they knew I choose wrong stream when form 4,I am still enveloped in regret now.

After get my spm results,I managed to go to apply the law of MMU.I thought if I get their base requirement then I can managed to get in to the university,but I have been rejected by the admission.I am very disappointed and mood swings when I know it.But never mind,I believe God has leave a better plan for me.

So finally I choose Form 6 as my pre u to enter the university.First,I need to change my stream from science to arts.I choose back sigs as my pre u school because I don't like the mixed school and I believe sigs will maintain the quality they have.My target is want to enter the local university that is UM and UKM law school.The requirement of UM is very high so I must get 4.0 and muet at least get band 4,5 or 6 and interview to mange to get in.Hectic 1.5 years ahead.

难过

最近发生了很多事情，我不懂该怎么说.
突然，我们就这样断了联系，从此以后就再也没有联络，我依然还是会想，你过得好不好.最算从此以后我们没有再找对方，这是一个减少伤害的方法.我明白.

又一年了

又一年了，之前一直想开你开不到，现在竟然糊里糊涂的开到了。今天是916，2014对我来说实在是太不可思议了。streaming了很多次，可是最后都stream在一个很好的班，感恩。自从streaming了过后我就学着把所有的一切交给主，什么事情都不用担心。说一说昨天吧，我们见面了，爸爸果然很早就打算放我一个人让我处理完所有事情，做到了啦，人生中第一辆蓝德士给我坐了，唉，算了啦，是我自己的钱。一切在我预料之内，我们见到完全没有不好意思，就很好的讲话咯。把回忆收在脑就好。